Day 153: I release you

for so long i longed to be free of your clench around my heart. i planned and attempted to execute multiple escapes, each time failing. until at last i succeeded. for years i’ve worked to recognize myself, learn joy and build anew. so much work. good work. and after all that, it is you i noticed who didn’t reach out to congratulate me on my big day. with these words and the energy that surrounds them, i release you and i release you from me. it seems as though i’ve held a part of you in clenched hands. all this time. perhaps that part that affirmed my existence. that part i found so endearing. but even that part i can no longer hold. doing so doesn’t serve either one of us. i breathe deep. and let go.