Day 38: Sometimes

sometimes i like to be thought of, called, checked in on and

sometimes i like interest to be expressed by asking

how are you?

sometimes it feels like we are in a procedural relationship and

sometimes procedures work but not always

are you as unfulfilled as i?

sometimes i want to scream with laughter and burst with joy and

sometimes i want to do these things with you

am i not that one?

sometimes it feels as though i frustrate you with who i am and

sometimes i no longer want to share my hopes

why do we stay together?

sometimes i want to leave so that i may experience joy and

sometimes i feel guilty for feeling so selfish

why must we continue like this?

sometimes i tried to leave and told you this much and

sometimes you heard but mostly you didn’t

why don’t you listen to me?

sometimes i refrain from talking and instead be planning and

sometimes those plans get carried out

are you okay without me?

sometimes i think about you and pray for your happiness and

sometimes i just focus on my new life

do you have joy in your life?

because that is my prayer for you