Entry 1. April 2021.

the changes taking place within me are indescribable and unique and yet so completely expected and common. many people born with wombs move through stages of period cessation. this is common and expected. so much of what has been understood about perimenopause, menopause and post menopause is summarized in books and other resource materials. and yet somehow this transition moment is not spoken of much. so much remains missing about what it feels like to move through this intensely powerful and beautiful moment in life, how unsettling the changes can be and how to discover the sacred messages revealed by the unpredictable reactions to sometimes mundane experiences.

today i offer this…

beautiful as life's emergence is the retiring of duties responsible for her maintenance.

yesterday was placid. connected yet distant, simultaneously. safe in both. unbothered by either. regardless and in spite of.

yesterday i got along. behaved well. did was i was s’posed to.

today is unsettling in its unpredictability. surface veneer stripped away. senses made poignant. truths revealed without regard for my willingness to hear them. raw af.

today there is no simply getting along. no such thing when the heart is free, tongue unbound and soul deeply rooted.

tomorrow i may have something else.