Day 137: Feelings

a once deep longing retired long ago. no longer serving its host, it went away. she sent it away, actually, when resolving in her heart and soul that some things were simply not meant to happen.

she continued moving through life appreciating the blessings, moving through challenges, learning and growing along the way. until one day the source of longing showed up quite unexpectedly, filling her with many feelings and emotions. uncertain what to do she scooped them into her hands and squeezed them into little pill sized formations. she then swallowed each, one by one, until they were gone. she isn’t ready for all that is coming up. and that’s okay. perhaps when they arise again, she will be ready.