Day 142: Not worth it

the monster builds inside. full of tension and frustration. not enough time to do all the things that should have been done yesterday and before. shoulders harden. headache intensifies. chest tightens. i collapse under the stress of it all. was it worth it?

those hours lost in stress, the days given to overwork, the life cut short. were the circumstances that gave rise to these decisions worth the sacrificed mind-body-spirit care and relationships with loved ones? close calls and regrets about things unsaid when loved ones pass, challenge what i may have offered as reasons for the overwork. giving all to a job at the expense of life and relationships is simply not worth it.